Being a writer in the time of Covid–or any other time

Everyday, I check my sales. Pretty stupid and depressing. Sometimes there is a Kindle Unlimited reader or two, and just the other day there was an unexpected surprise–two paperback sales from expanded distribution where my royalty is about a buck. Unless I pay for an email promotion there are no random sales. I’m having several social media promos right now and nothing, zilch, nada. I drop my price to 99 cents and still nothing so then I pop it back up. What’s the point of just throwing my hours of creativity away for a measly 99 cents before Amazon takes its cut if it doesn’t spur sales?

So I now I’m  working on what I think will be my last project and trying to be motivated. It’s hard in the time of Covid to write fiction when you feel like you are living in a dystopia nightmare. People willy nilly get the virus. Most don’t know how. People die quickly, people take time to die and suffer greatly, and people get better. No one knows why there are differences. And low and behold there are some people who have it and nothing happens to them. No symptoms. Unknown carriers of death. If that makes a person want to just stay in bed, I get it. But there are people who want to get out, still think it’s a hoax because their brains haven’t ripened and they believe the monster in the WH who doesn’t give a crap about anyone. So they go out, don’t wear masks, and breathe all over everyone. Killers they are.

Toilet paper shortages, paper towel shortages, and now a break in our food supply. It’s like right outside my window there are riots and looting. Chaos in the streets. Mayhem. Well not yet but it feels like any moment it will happen because the government has failed us with shutting down businesses and not getting money fast enough into peoples hands so they can go to the store and not find toilet paper or food. Empty shelves getting emptier.

So why would anyone want to spend three bucks of the money they don’t have to buy a book? My book? Well, we all need something to do. Why not read? And really, why not read one of my books? They are really good, I say humbly. If you can’t buy Charmin you can use the money for a Kindle book or buy the paperback and recycle it for TP after you’ve finished.

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Happy? Easter

Easter Sunday is normally a joyful day for Christians, theoretically. In their minds it’s the day their Savior rises from the dead to bring love and protection for all mankind forever. But this Easter is way different. This Easter I can’t help but ask–why are we being visited by a plague? How can we resume a normal life where we can rejoice on holidays and feast with our families?

A strange occurrence is also happening. The planet is happier absent humans. The skies are free of smog, herds of animals roam freely, the birds are basking in the warm sun happily singing songs of love. Can it be that Earth wants us to perish? To take back possession of nature and all the damage humans have done?

I hope there are lessons to be learned from this pandemic. I hope we can keep the planet free from smog, to fix the gaping income inequality, and barbaric healthcare system in the United States. I hope we rid ourselves of the malignant government we are currently suffering under. Easter Sunday is usually a time of hope and faith with the rising from the dead of the goodness that can smite evil. And smiting the evil in our midst is a must for our survival.

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Keep your distance

Flowers bathe the air with sweetness. Chirping birds build tiny nests for tiny eggs. Puffy clouds float through bright blue skies. Sharp twigs break underfoot on trails cut through nature’s abundance. Insects buzz. Cattle chew their cud. Green leaves on reincarnated trees rustle gently in the wind. The sounds and sights of Spring.

But no sounds of human pleasure. No sounds of children playing, giggling, screaming with laughter. No muffled conversations between close friends, or lovers, no casual hellos to passersby who’ve gone missing.

Keep your distance.

Stay shut in or walk alone in the woods, breathe the outdoors but do not laugh together for fear of sharing droplets. Do not touch each other, nod your head in greeting minus hugs. Together alone in this separation.

Keep your distance.

But try to find some peace.

Keep your distance.

But try to find some joy.

Keep your distance… and live.

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Is this real life or a sci-fi movie?

Stumbling out of bed, I sleepily go into the kitchen to get the kitties their breakfast. The sun was bright and the thick backyard grass visible through my lanai was a lush green. A bird was chirping loudly. A peaceful scene. A quiet Sunday morn. Turning on the espresso maker for two shots with foamy milk. Love my lattes. Sat down in my favorite chair still looking outside through my wall of glass, kitties satisfied napping in the sun. Grabbed my iPad and read yahoo news. Wham! We are living in the Sci-Fi movie called The Virus That Ate America.

We are now up to 6000 cases from under 2000, was it just last week? European countries are shutting down all restaurants and nonessential businesses, and even borders. We’ve blocked travel from Europeans to the US and now from the UK and Ireland. Americans are rushing home and making airport customs a nightmare petri dish of people. Schools are shut for as much as 8 weeks. There’s been a run on toilet paper and fresh vegetables.

We are at the edge of a panic. We must stay away from each other. Everything has become virtual overnight. Homeschooling online, college courses online, doctor visits online. Groceries, meals, clothing all delivered to our doors. Prisoners from touching and socializing face to face. Facetiming with family, replaces hugs.

A bad situation was made worse by an incompetent president. A narcissist who is more worried about reelection than this pandemic from a virus that started in China and has made its way around the globe like lightning. Highly contagious, the sci-fi strangeness is that symptoms are quite broad. You can feel nothing, no sickness but be a carrier. Feel like you have a bad flu, or become so ill you can’t breathe with complications from pneumonia and die.

How can we deal with this uncertainty? We can’t. There is panic, there is depression, and there is remaining in denial, like our WH. The corrupt mendacity of this unfit president has as his motivations for refusing testing kits from WHO: 1. his reelection because it would look bad if there were too many cases here after he called the virus fears a hoax 2. his financial interest in a lab company, and 3. the Kushner family owning a company that could make these kits.

Right now we can mitigate this carnage brought on by this carnival barker, game show host president by voting him out on Nov to save ourselves and this planet and also we can  relax and read a good book. I happen to have three that I can recommend. Walking with Elephants a lighthearted tale about the serious work/family issues women face today, Sunspots, a love story of loss and redemption, and When a Stranger Comes… a Faustian tale about greed in modern society. All are award-winning books that you will enjoy.

I hope I can finish my last works in a two book series because I am in a high risk group for succumbing from this virus should I get it. Let’s hope the sequel to this movie is called After the Virus Came a New World of Hope and Love.

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Something might be changing–bigtime

As I watch the Democrats primary process, I’m sensing that a moment in history might be upon us. Are we witnessing a quiet revolution? I’ve had enough of the same old thing,  going on? We are suffering under the worst president in living memory. A man who is losing his faculties right before our eyes but who is at the same time becoming more despotic and moving our government toward dictatorship. A mad king, if you will, supported by greedy power hungry mobsters. Against this push toward autocracy and authoritarianism we have the Dems and their message of inclusion, equality, justice, and a healthcare system that is available to us all.

Chief among them pushing this message is Bernie Sanders who has been pushing this same message his entire adult life. But now people are really listening. The masses seem to really want this change. Civilized countries usually have followed the U.S.’s lead but in this ideology, we are woefully behind. In other countries a catastrophic illness will not bankrupt you, universities are mostly tuition free, the cost of living is doable, and they are still democracies.

The MSM is afraid of Bernie. Why? They like to tell everyone how he went to the Soviet Union for his honeymoon, how he has said positive things about Castro, that his political ideology is really Communism not Democratic Socialism. Why are they lying? We all know for a fact that trump glorifies Putin, Kim Jong-Un, Recep Tayyip Erdoğan of Turkey, among other dictators. Is trump  really a Commie? Why don’t the MSM harp on that? Trump is dismantling whatever healthcare system we have remaining from the ACA. He wants to take way protections for pre-existing conditions. He has destroyed our intelligence community, our judiciary, our economy with soaring deficits, our alliances. He has destroyed all our government agencies so that the EPA pushes to help the oil companies and to dirty our drinking water, destroyed our State Department, and the CDC so that if the coronavirus hits the US we are understaffed to do much. He has deconstructed the administrative state that Bannon wanted him to do. He alone remains to fix it, but he is woeful ill-equipped mentally to do so. Will he a create a Gestapo to help him? To arrest his foes?

But there is Bernie with a groundswell of people rallying behind him saying. Hell NO! We want our country back. We want to be able to go to the hospital and not come out broke, we want a higher education and not come out broke. The way is was when I, an old woman now, was growing up. Medicare for all is a great idea but we didn’t invent it. It’s the way things have been in Europe and Great Britain for decades. You can be a bartender in London and have healthcare just for living there.

I think Americans are tired of living in this elitist society. Where money talks, where having money is the goal, where greed is the motivation for all things. I hope and pray that this election throws out the evil despot destroying out democracy and is replaced by sanity, equality, and unity, and above all else a healthcare system that works for everyone.


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